So the past couple of months I came to a simple conclusion: I suck at getting things done. I start something, then I start another thing, I drop the first thing, keep on going with the second one and start something completely different again just to drop that second thing as well. Then after all of that, the whole process repeats itself.
Even now that I’m writing this article, my thoughts are actually elsewhere – in the kitchen to be precise – waiting for the chocolate and that thick layer of salty peanut buttery heaven to be frozen just a tiny bit, so that I can pour the rest of the melted dark chocolate all over it to finally finish my own peanut butter chocolate truffle creations. Sounds delicious, I know…
BUT that’s not the point! Or is it?
The thing is: Most of the time I’m extremely passionate about something (the kitchen) despite the fact that just a few minutes ago I made a decision to finally sit down and write (this article).
And no, don’t tell me that you know that as well. Don’t tell me you’re exactly the same and that I’m not alone with this, because I’m sure I’m the most hopeless case out there and no one can compare to my situation! – I’m joking… obviously. But that’s exactly how it feels.
So when it comes to this blog, my passion curve looks kind of like this:
1. The “Everything Is New”-Phase – Motivation: 100%!
When I’m starting something new – may it be now with this blog or with whatever – I’m usually starting pretty high… too high maybe. I have an endless amount of energy and ideas and I just want to pour it all out at once.
2. The “Uh-oh, what’s that?”-Phase – Ah, never mind!
Now that everything is almost set up, the passion might decrease a bit if I come across problems or just some things that I haven’t quite figured out yet and that keep me from moving forward. This phase usually doesn’t last too long.
3. The “Damn Baby, I’m unstoppable”-Phase – Give me more!
As soon as the struggles from phase two are out of the way I’m all in again. I put the pedal to the metal, as they say. I’m writing, I’m confident and nothing can stop me… that’s what I think at least.
4. The “I’m doing with my life”-Phase – Get me the fuck out of here!
As time goes by though, other things happen. Distractions appear, new problems arise, I loose the goal that I once had or I simply don’t feel so much like it anymore. Thus, the passion slowly but steadily starts to decline until it reaches its low-point.
While reflecting on those things I realized that the possible “problems” that might arise during this period are the lesser evil here and that distractions are a pretty common thing in our modern “Everyone is ALWAYS on Social Media” society, so I started focusing more on the “lost goal” aspect.
My Goal and How I Lost It
When I started this blog I was in search for that one THING that EVERYONE tells you to have before starting a blog. If you don’t have that THING you should not even lift a finger and better start doing something else. That THING can bring you sleepless nights, because if you haven’t found it you feel like a total failure. The THING I’m talking about is a NICHE. One of my most hated words of the year!
So when starting my blog, my inner dialogue went kind of like this:
What could be my niche? How about XYZ?
– Too boring over a long period of time.
Then what about THAT?
Or maybe I could do something like…
– You can’t be serious!
So I asked myself:
“How come that I don’t have a niche? Come on, I must at least be interested in SOMETHING… ANYTHING!”
And the answer is yes, I am interested in things. I’m interested in MANY things, too many things at the same time which makes it almost impossible for me to focus on just one thing. So I told myself:
“Fuck it! Let me write about whatever I want to write about and let’s see where this goes!”
This became the “Goal” I was working towards. To just write about whatever bugs me or what I want to share with the world at the moment and it worked pretty well for quite some time. No niche, no problems – Right? But humans have a major flaw. Let me explain this flaw with an example so that you can fully understand MY problem:
Most people consume meat, dairy and egg products on a regular basis, even though it’s scientifically proven that it would be better for their health, the animals and the environment to just stop consuming these kind of products.
The flaw here is that humans simply believe in what they have been told and it’s super hard to get them to stop doing something they have been conditioned to for their entire lives, even though they would be better off changing their habits.
The same goes for me and blogging (aaaand lots and lots of other things), but let’s still stick with the blogging for now.
While I was doing my own – niche-less – thing I felt great at first, but over time the Niche-Monster came slowly crawling back into my mind and again I was sure that I’m a total failure and that a blog without a niche can simply not be a great blog. – Damn you, all you blogger experts out there!
So yeah, I just stopped. I lost my goal because of the false believe that it would just make no sense to continue this way.
I’m a Person, Not a Niche!
After having a “dramatic breakdown” because of this I tried to find a solution. Stupid me thought it would be best to start something completely different, but after realizing that this is a bad idea and that I will most likely end up at the same point, I decided to stick to the blog and – again – I started to search for a niche. Nope… I didn’t learn a single thing from all my past “niche-finding” sessions…
Believe it or not, all I needed in the end were two simple posts by random bloggers that assured me that I don’t need a freakin’ niche. Especially one of these posts helped me to make a decision by reminding me of the past and why I wanted to blog so much in the first place.
I’m working on internet-related projects for about 14 years now. When I started blogging back then, all I did was talking about myself and nothing of that fitted in any kind of niche. I wrote about trivial things: What I got for my birthday, what Manga I was currently reading, why I loved it so much, what other websites I was a part of and how much I loved the people there (shout-out to the Shizoo-Crew back then!).
I couldn’t care less what others thought about me. I was proud to share these things and I actually had readers who also cared and liked what I had to say. So I realized that this is what I have to go back to! I have to stop caring and just write what’s on my mind. Don’t worry, I will not go entirely back to my past-blogging-self and start writing about my birthdays again if it’s not absolutely necessary, but I will go back to the roots, back to myself.
I’m a person after all, not a niche!